Note to self & Lesson I’m learning: Not everyone wants to help themselves. Can’t SAVE someone who doesn’t want to be helped. I could have the cure for cancer, AIDS, diabetes, all STDs and STIs, etc., but if someone AINT trying to hear it it won’t make no difference. My heart is big, I don’t want anyone to be left behind, but if you don’t care to listen and learn then why am I so eager? Baby steps to get to a place where I can comfortably let people live their own lives without any of my suggestions. I still care, but until you’re serious don’t come at me.
to be passionate about someone. I’m sure it’s a definite plus though. Haven’t gone down that road still. You have someone you care for so much that you consistently and constantly love through all positives and negatives, whether they are in your life or not? It’s just something about that person that attracts you to them more and more, year after year.You still learning about them after how ever long? Would that be love or a script for a movie? Is it comfort or agape? Apape, Philia, Eros, or Storge or a combination of any of those? What does it all mean? Just think about it, loving someone literally forever. How does that even feel? How would you know if forever can’t be measured?
I want more though. Every year I learn and grow into who I am supposed to be. You’ve helped through your distant love, tough love, and that smell I can’t seem to describe until the wind carries the scent from someone who shares the same smell. I want to be so comfortable in myself for my own happiness, so one day you can reap all benefits. You are most definitely my soulmate. I honor, respect, and love you.
(i don’t have any answers, I have all the questions)
Quote from Elizabeth Gilbert’s Eat, Pray, Love:
“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.
A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to revealanother layer of yourself to you, and then leave.
A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master…”
the actors portraying the characters are so talented, you tune in every selected weekday to keep up with the lives of this fictional characters that more than likely have existed some time in the past, present, and future.
Lane Pryce is an honest man, who was just too damn nice. He was a bit of a push-over all of his life because of his inability to stand up to his loving, yet domineering father. He would never hurt a fly with his pleasing smile and unprotected heart, except for the time he beat Pete Campbell’s ass but then again Pete Campbell is a pig, who deserved every single fiery punch in the face. Sometimes mistakes are made for the greater good of others, ignorantly, and sometimes it’s to get ourselves out of a rut that we just have to get out of. I wish Lane wasn’t scared of standing up to his father. I wish he could really have sex with a black woman without the fear of rejection and disapproval from his father. I wish the energy he devoted to pleasing everyone, he could have turned around and pleased himself in luxury and the real self-satisfaction of saying NO (without beating himself up and being guilty). To be honest, he could never truly survive in America. His spirit wasn’t cut out for it. Although his relationship with his father was much like a strictly business partnership, I wish he would have taken the offer to go back home to England. America, back then and now, never knew how to stop working and enjoy a cup of tea. We, Americans, don’t understand the logic, principle, and psychology of enjoying life even during a work day. We just believe that working hard, long into the night, will get us to where we want to go and get us the material things we want. Only after we are pissy drunk, unsatisfied about the life we have built, have black lungs thanks to all the cigarettes we smoke a day, then we would realize that there is more to life than what was done with happiness waiting at our every beck and call. Waiting to please us with her delightful smile through the chirping of the birds, gaze of the sun, pungent and sweet smell of flowers, plants dipped in a delicious shade of green announcing that spring is right around the corner. I wish that everyone else’s dirty secrets were aired out for the company to see, but even if that were I believe Lane would have still left the company the way he did. He wore everyone else’s personal emotions and problems with beautiful cuff-links given to him for his 30th birthday by his wife. She never understood why and will confused for the rest of her life at his decision, but hopefully he talks to her at night to ease her pain. He should have told her the truth, but I guess he thought of that and even though he’s been promiscuous and has thoughts of continuing to be so, she was always there. Everything happens for a reason. That’s so cliche. But that’s the tagline to my life. Everything happens for a reason; even on a tv show.
Sometimes it’s hard to separate characters from their actors. I’m not going to throw rocks or tomatoes at any of these beautifully, creative actors who have made me hate them, love them, and be disgusted by them. I’ll just clap really hard for their performances. bringing words to life through live action is a hard thing to do. Jon Hamm knows. I love him, but I’m on the fence with Don Draper. He still fine though. Now I’m off to cry my eyes about Lane Pryce’s decision.